Freedom in an Unexpected Calling

Christa had her life mapped out: a loving marriage, children to raise, and a faith that felt as natural as breathing. But when her mother died at fifty-one and infertility shattered her dreams of motherhood, she built the biggest steel door imaginable between herself and God, posting a "do not disturb" sign meant specifically for Him. For nearly two decades, she wandered in spiritual wilderness, angry and disconnected, while God quietly wove a nonprofit through every corner of her life. What began as a desperate prayer became a journey from corporate America to kingdom work, from bitter grief to spiritual motherhood, and from asking "What have I done?" to declaring "Whatever you want, God." This is the story of how our deepest heartbreaks can become our greatest callings, and how God's relentless love can transform even our angriest rebellions into beautiful surrender.